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2005 Tick Tock

I've never been one for New Years Resolutions but I do have a few aims I'd like to achieve in 2005.

Among them are:

1. Start seeing published material from Cubicle 7.
2. Actually manage to do some proper writing both for Cubicle 7 products and maybe a few short stories/new poems.
3. Find 'True Love' and live 'Happily Ever After'
4. Pass my driving test.
5. See more of close friends.

I had a shit year in 2004 on the whole. It certainly had some brighter moments and Sarah (whatever faults we may or may not have had) did help bring a fair amount of light to it. I'd go as far as saying that she was the best thing that happened to me in 2004. I really do hope that I meet someone and we both fall head-over-heels in love and 'last' but that's the one aim of the above 5 that I think is the least likely to happen. I'm generally very picky and also very shy when it comes to meeting new people socially (I know many of you would disagree with that last bit but believe it or not it is sadly very, very true) and my tastes in women are even harder.

It gets harder to meet people as you get older and, as much as I hate to say it, the scenes in which I move in are surprisingly not really the scenes that have the type of women I fancy. Sure I've been out with a few goth women over the last 16 years but the last was over ten years ago. My tastes in women do not match my social circles so this is obviously a vast hinderance. Saying that though there are certainly some 'cuties' in the scene - I just hope they don't end up being completely fucked-up *IF* they happened to take notice of me in the first place :p

I also want to get my motivation back. Dave was only commenting a little while ago (we hit the pub tonight so apologies about jabbering on in this post and any spelling mistakes) that my motivation has decreased in the last four years we've lived together. By the same token he also feels that I'm alot more considerate of my partners needs and go out of my way to make them feel loved and happy. Now I've always gone out of my way to make my partners feel loved and happy but I know what he means about this. When Dave first moved in with me I was also living with Delphine and very heavily involved in running the Camarilla (for those who don't know the Camarilla is an international Live Roleplaying society). I spent so much time organising things that I did end up not giving as much time to Delphine as she should have got - and also not going out and doing as many things as I/we should have. This is something that I regret terribly, and to be honest did dislike at the time, but I *felt* I had commitments to the society and it's 10,000+ members as I was one of the International Directors of the society. I don't regret my time organising the Cam but I certainly do regret not being able to spend as much time with loved ones and good friends as I should have because of it.

I want the sort of motivation that I showed for the Camarilla back so I can invest it in Cubicle 7 and other projects.

Hopefully I'll generally feel a lot happier in 2005 than I did last year but ultimately that's for me to sort out.

I want cuddles too.

Especially cuddles :)


( 6 comments — Leave a comment )
Jan. 2nd, 2005 01:33 am (UTC)
Cuddles are very important. Here's hoping you get some soon.

(I'd offer but I think Grim might get upset. So you'll have to settle for a big hug) :o)
Jan. 2nd, 2005 01:48 am (UTC)
You have permission to cuddle Angus :)

He's coming to visit us soon anyway...


Jan. 2nd, 2005 09:29 am (UTC)
Re: :)
I certianly hope to be and want to be. With Dave and Sasha moving away at the end of this month.beginning of Feb my main concern at the moment is finding a new flatmate so I, at least, can keep a roof over my head and avoid moving several tons of books and stuff.

I would love to come and see you guys though. Another bonus for me would be getting away from everything for a weekend :-p
Jan. 3rd, 2005 03:43 pm (UTC)
Re: :)
clearly i should come along too for a huge hairy cuddle fest

Jan. 2nd, 2005 08:40 am (UTC)
With the C7 stuff you need to visualise cash this helps with insparation.

Also if you need a hand with a bit of advertiseing we can do flyers ditribution thorugh our orders and cons we go to.

Also haeing a goal helps, Ihave 2 oals one for IP, which is to chnage the face of publishng and help others. With th RPG stuff it's to change a stagnant industry and offer some interesting alternatives.

Jan. 2nd, 2005 03:38 pm (UTC)
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