March 18th, 2005

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I'd forgotten how much I quite liked the feel of warm sunlight on my face. How much I liked the blue of a clear sky. Today has reminded me. It is becoming that time where the coats and jumpers are left at home and I can wander the streets in t-shirts and not freeze to death.

This year so far has been very good to me one way or another. Sure, there have been down points but overall it's been a much better year already than 2004 was. I have had a good feeling about 2005 and days like today enhance that further. Welcome back sun and sky. I do think this is the year of my rebirth after several years of suffering mental hibernation. I feel enthused and reawakened.

Even if I do have to walk in the shadows to see anything.
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captainwhimsy I LOVE YOU!!!!

I am now SO happy. I knew I wasn't the most debauched person out of my friends and despite having had some shocks at what other people's Purity Scores were (all a lot more pure than little innocent me - ahem) I was beginning to feel quite worried. Especially as jamespond was even more pure than me!!!!

Anyway, captainwhimsy THANK YOU for being so debauched and making me look like a saint. I LOVE YOU!!!!

I won't say what you got as I'll leave that to you if you want to announce it but let's just say you are one sick puppy (but then I kinda new that already!).

Yeah - I can reclaim my little siants halo again!

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Weekend Plans

I am hoping to feel well enough to go out for a bit this weekend. After two days of largely being at home I am beginning to feel slightly better and as long as I don't overdo it (er, yeah) I should be fine.

Still, cancelled all clubbing plans for tonight. That would just not be a good idea AT ALL. But at least by cancelling I don't have to choose to go and see friends at Synthetic Culture *or* go and see friends at Sin City. I can just relax at home and watch a DVD (or spend all night on bloody LJ!) instead :)

As for the rest of the weekend, well....

Lunch in Camden tomorrow with snesgirl followed by bluehelen's party Saturday night. Then on Sunday I'm travelling into the wilds to go and see mundenlogic and co for an afternoon/evening of 'chilling' with DVDs, Boardgames, and good company.

Then it's back to work on Monday for me.

Of course all of the above is on the condition that I'm feeling better, both for my sake and for everyone else's as I don't want to contaminate people - I don't hate you all that much really you know! :p

Another possibility is just not overdoing it at bluehelen's and coming home at a reasonable hour in a reasonable state and also not staying at mundenlogic's too late (although I'll have to check train times back to London in anycase!).

Still, should be fun and action packed if all goes according to plan.
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(Poetry) Religious Pawns

Religious Pawns

Your God may never die
Whilst mine was never born
But does it really make a difference
When we all end up as pawns
Expendable for religions
Created every day.
Dreaming of an afterlife
Which is nearer than we think.

By A R J Abranson
(Taken from 'This Graveyard Heart')

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(Poetry) Silent Poetry

Silent Poetry

I want to show you reasons
Why you should stay here
I want to tell you things
That my heart wants you to know
But I can’t find the right words
To tell you that I love you
And I want you to be here.
This time may be forever
The way my heart feels
But I know it won’t be for a day
If I can’t open up and tell you
That I think you’re so special
And I can’t bear to see you leave.
When you’re not around me
I feel so alone and empty
These things scare me
Because I want to know that you’re okay
And that you are having fun
And if that makes you happy
You can have whatever you want
Just please stay in touch
And as much as I doubt it
I’ll still hold hope for tomorrow
I wish I could have shown you
I wish I could have found some words
But the poet in me was silenced
When I needed him the most.
You’re so special
But now are you really just memories
And wishes without substance
When I really need to feel
Something more.
Move over and give me some thought
I want to give you a reason
Why you should be here now
I want to let you know
What I feel inside
I want you to want to be with me
Everytime I laugh and cry
I want there to be a beginning
Because the ends are so hard
And I still love you.

(Taken from 'Cry To Me')
This was originally dedicated to Angela although I never sent her a copy.