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Devoid of Hate

Not being able to hate is a horrible thing. I want, I *WISH*, I could hate as it would make life a hell of a lot easier sometimes.

Not being able to hate just makes it all the more likely you'll get stepped on and taken advantage of and then end up forgiving the person/people involved.

I'm also fed up of f**king lies and at the moment there seems to be all too many of those floating about. I wish people would just be honest or f**k off.

Regardless of the above rant my weekend has *generally* been pretty good.  I saw mooncadet for drinks and chats Friday night. We've been chatting quite a bit recently and she's started to become my new confident in many aspects. It's good because apart from not actually being involved in anything that's going on (because she doesn't live in London) she listens - which is a rarer commodity than it should be. So thanks mel for being there and being able to give me impartial thoughts of My F**ked Up Life (tm).

Saturday day didn't really exist for me. After seeing Mel to the tube so she could go and meet her fella I ended up crawling into bed at 11am and didn't resurface until 5pm! That left me an hour to get ready for the Rammstein/Apocalyptica gig. Apocalyptica were awesome and possibly the best support band I have seen ever! It's stunning what four cello's and a drummer can produce :) Rammstein were also very good and their stage set-up was one of the best I think I've ever seen at a live gig. There were less pyrotechnics this time round (I've seem them twice before) but they once again produced a very entertaining evening.

Then I went to Slimes, against my wishes, and now wish that I could actually hate.

You watch, I'll wake up tomorrow and end up being as sweet as pie to person/people again.

I really shouldn't have gone to Slimes - I didn't want to go plus I was feeling a bit under the weather but went as a favour to make sure someone was ok. I am a f**king idiot that certain people just walk all F**king over without giving a shit. Especially when they get drunk. F**KERS.

I wish it wasn't 3am and I wish I could ring a couple of people for a chat. But it is 3am and they will either be asleep, out partying, or probably won't pick up the damn phone.

I'm going to bed. And no I'm not drunk and ranting. I wish I was drunk (could do without the ranting though as I'm most certainly doing that anyway!).




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ant_girl
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:01 am (UTC)
I wish I could hate sometimes too...
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 11:03 am (UTC)
:::hugs:::
xxxgrimxxx
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:10 am (UTC)
I can hate enough for the whole world and it's not a goodness.

Come down and visit us and get away from it all for a while.

And fuck it, drag Keyvan down while you're at it we really miss the sorry iranian bastard like a lopped off limb :(
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 11:05 am (UTC)
Yeah, you need to cheer up Mr Grimbo! Hating isn't 'always' a good thing you know :p

I will come and visit. I know I've said it before but Mel and myself were talking about both oraginsing a weekend to come and see you guys. Unfortunately I don't think it'll be before April though as I'm out of the country every f**king weekend in March and doubt I'll be able to make it this month. If I can though I'll let you know :D
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 01:02 pm (UTC)
I doubt you'd be able to tempt Keyvan down now he's married. Your best chance is catching him up here next time you guys visit.
kostika
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:12 am (UTC)
Yes come visit and get away from it all. Remember we're always here for you. If you need us, we're here. I've only known you for a short while but you're still a friend.

And I hate jsut as much as Grim does.
gabby2600
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:12 am (UTC)
Well I'm still up, I hav ebeen sleeping odd hours of late, and well I know wwhat your going through.
xxxgrimxxx
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:14 am (UTC)
In addition...
Mel is one of the loveliest people alive and I love her as much as I'm allowed to love anyone that isn't my wife.

I also love you (but not in quite the same way) and you can feel free to call me or Donna any time you're feeling down, you should know that. I know you've been having a hard time lately and you really should admit it and spread the load with a few of your friends.

Get your arse out to the country for DVDs, gaming and Playstation, you know you want to... we DO have a 42" plasma screen :)
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 11:06 am (UTC)
Re: In addition...
'not in quite the same way' - I'm now heartborken.

'we DO have a 42" plasma screen' - You don't have to bribe me you know. I DO ACTUALY WANT TO COME AND SEE YOU GUYS!!!! :p
xxxgrimxxx
Feb. 6th, 2005 11:24 am (UTC)
Re: In addition...
I'll swap it for a black and white portable immediately then...
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 11:37 am (UTC)
Re: In addition...
B&W TV's have a slightly cheaper license fee so go for it! :D
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angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 11:09 am (UTC)
Yeah, that was the edited version.
tooth_fairy
Feb. 6th, 2005 08:01 am (UTC)
big hugs for the big haired Angus,

you're a great guy, don't change. Ignore wankers, they are not worth your attention
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 11:07 am (UTC)
thank you. :::hugs::: back my dear
commlal
Feb. 6th, 2005 10:49 am (UTC)
It was you that I saw at the Ramstein gig! *laughs* It was a mighty gig, and truely fantastic.

People are idiots when drunk, and I too wish I could hate them.
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 11:09 am (UTC)
It was a good gig. Where abouts did you see me? I ended up standing to the right of the stage, back a bit just past the girls toilets. Close enough to see everything without getting caught up in the mosh pit or having my eyebrows cinged off :p
karohemd
Feb. 6th, 2005 03:54 pm (UTC)
Four cellos?
Did Apocalyptica get another one in? There were only three last Saturday and Thursday.

It's a sad fact that people suck. I just try to ignore those who do and concentrate on those who don't. :o(
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:02 pm (UTC)
Re: Four cellos?
Yep, there were definetly four on stage on saturday night. First was a guy in a suit, second was long haired bloke who was the main speaker to audience, third was another long haired guy and the fourth was a shorter haired fellow. Then you had the drummer.
karohemd
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:07 pm (UTC)
Re: Four cellos?
Interesting. I had heard rumours that one of them had actually left the band but maybe that was just temporary...
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:12 pm (UTC)
Re: Four cellos?
Maybe he'd been ill or had family commitments that prevented him from playing some of the other dates?
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:13 pm (UTC)
Re: Four cellos?
The guy in the suit remained seated the whole time. The other guys tended to bounce around stage every so often and harass the drummer. I don't know if the seated guy was the one missing previously but maybe he wasn't feeling fit enough to *bounce*?
karohemd
Feb. 6th, 2005 04:39 pm (UTC)
Re: Four cellos?
Sat on the right (as you look at the stage), black suit, short and styled hair? He was there Friday and Sat.
Hm, there are only three in the photos on the website (he's the one in the middle). Maybe it was a guest appearance?
angusabranson
Feb. 6th, 2005 05:05 pm (UTC)
Re: Four cellos?
The guy in the middle of the photograph sat on the right of the four but wasn't wearing a suit on Saturday. There was a guy sitting on the left hand side that was the suit wearing mystery man. I recognised the other three from the website.

I haven't got a clue who he was. But I am convinced I wasn't imagining a fourth person.
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