This is doubly annoying as I am a point in my life, for a change, where I can actually take control of such things and see them through the stages to print form. Although I'm currently not working on any of the commissioned projects for Cubicle 7 my low motivation has certainly affected the company to a certain degree. Lucikly I have some very talented people working for me so I don't have to worry 'too' much about my own creativity downturn, I just have to make sure the business side of operations work and that the various people in the chain can fulfil their commitments (be they writers, artists, editors, layout artists, etc).
There are projects which I am truly and deeply excited about and I would love to work on (both within Cubicle 7 and without for other companies or my own independant projects) but I need to have a pick-me-up of somekind. The only problem is I don;t know what kind of 'pick-me-up' I need. My most creative times came about when I was younger and to a certain extent when I was depressed. In fact at one point I could manipulate my moods quite easily from 'happy' to 'brooding' to 'depressed' - to an extent I can still do it today although I've not artificially changed my moods (to the negative) for some time. I used to really enjoy locking myself away in my room with a bottle of southern comfort, a packet of fags (or some dope), some good music and my trusty typewriter. Some of the results were, in my opinion, very good. I'd like to try and capture that again but I feel tired. I have slipped into some sort of zone that sucks creativity and motivation from my mind and body. I need to somehow escape from this.
I've thought about taking holidays, about going on complete weekend benders with dubious cocktails and even more dubious friends, trying to storm my system with some kind of 'buzz' to jolt me awake. There are people I'd like to see and hang out with that do wonders to how I feel. Whose company wakens me.
Music still inspires me (both live and recorded), so does reading good books or even (sometimes) seeing great films. I don't know. Maybe I do need a break. A little holiday with a close friend or three. Something different.
Whatever, the end result is I need to break from this zone that I've found myself stuck in.
Any suggestions folks?