There is way too much to do this week and all through December for me to be feeling like disappearing. As much as part of me is really calling to vanish for a while to foreign climes I know I can't do it. Apart from anything else there is no reason to be feeling like this. Things are going pretty well at the moment (apart from not being able to shake this bug I've picked up). Work has picked up and is looking like it'll be a good Christmas. Publishing is going reasonably smoothy (although my email situation really needs to get fixed.....). Happy with my friends and family and have even made a very good new friend in the last few weeks. So why the sudden 'slump' in Angus-dom. F**ked if I know.
All I know is that I'm having a really big 'tug' at present wanting me to go away somewhere by myself for awhile. I go through these phases every so often but the only time I truely 'ran away' as such was back in 95 and that worried alot of people. Although saying that my emotional state at the time was very low and among the people I worried was myself too - 2005 is completely different 'stronger' emotional state so no fears about doing anything stupid now :p
I think I might look at going abroad for New Year. It'll save me trying to figure out what to do here in London and I like being out of the country for New Years anyway. Some of my best New Year Eves have been over in France, although I'm not sure if I'd head there this year. Find myself a nice hotel in a nice city and disappear with a few good books and a supply of pens and notebooks. Let#s hope I get an Ipod for Christmas so I can go with some good music too!!! :p
Btw, I now have a myspace account. Any of you Myspace users can find me at http://www.myspace.com/angusabranson
I'm currently seriously lacking friends over there (although the friends I do have are of the highest caliber) so if any of you do have myspace accounts please let me know!!!
Take care folks.
PS - The new Fields of the Nephilim CD 'Mourning Sun' is actually very good (although I'm not convinved with McCoy's cover of 'In the Year 2525' which is a bonus track on the CD i have).