I had a good chat to Lady Bug this morning about life and how being content, and having a safety net, makes you lazy and loose the edge. I valued that edge for years and molded it for a lot of creative expression through fiction, poetry and game writing. I also had a lot of fun whilst I was at it.
Now I know I'm a lot older than I used to be and much of my misbegotten youth would probably comatose me these days but I have allowed myself to get bogged down with certain things. I still, sometimes/rarely, push things towards the edge to remind myself that I still exist and have something to offer but it's not often enough.
I mentioned the other day I had three things I wanted to accomplish this week. I realise that two of them tie in with regaining some of that edge and sense of fulfilment and living.
I guess it's been on my mind for longer than I realised.
I am really looking forward to the future. But I also need to go through a self-cleansing process to be on top of my game and start feeling properly alive as opposed to wandering through a fog and watching time flash past me without being able to slow the process down and utilise it.
This week really see's me start walking down that avenue.
